Evening... well I'd have to say that was the hardest day of my life so far. Yes, I think it was even harder than the labor I went through to get E here! I dropped her off at my day care this a.m. around 9:15. I cried the whole way there, the whole time I was there and until about 1:30 at work. I just can't believe how much and how quickly I've fallen in love with this little girl! She is the best thing that's happened to me... along w/ G. To say the least I am absolutely drained tonight. Thank god I have wonderful employers who just let me go about my day and let it all out!

I actually miss my job... being there today reminded me how much I like it. I love working w/ our customers, ordering merchandise, the relaxed atmosphere... its just a nice place to be. I sorta felt proud today, like I joined the ranks of the working moms of the world. Dorky I know but it made me feel kinda cool!

It's a little after 10 and E is FINALLY getting the tired eyes... if I was smart I'd put this thing away and sleep while she does. But do any new moms ever do what they say, "sleep when the baby sleeps," yeah right. It's like you finally get a few minutes of peace and quiet to yourself, why would you waste it sleeping??? There's to many other things to do... wash bottles, dishes, laundry, play on the computer, read, pick up the house, eat dinner, pack her bag for tomorrow, pump, etc...
actually I need to pump, so night ya'll...

K