While reading Full Arm, Full Heart today I stumbled upon this paragraph that Lindsey wrote. I am not always so good at getting my thoughts down clearly on paper. This is exactly how I feel. I just couldn't write it myself!
And despite the effective contraception, unhesitant agreement with my husband that two is indeed a blessing enough, dwindling finances and obvious complaint that I'm freaking tired, there is still this quiet yet persistent nag deep down in the pit of my belly that begs for more babies. Sheesh! Still!! But then that's because when I look at them, I teeter on that fine line between knowing they are all I will ever need and wanting more of what brings me such joy. Can you blame me for wanting more of such love?
3 comments:
I feel the same way! I had the option of getting my tubes tied with the last c-section and I said no even though the hubby and I agreed no more kids!
I can atest that when you KNOW YOU KNOW! I was the exact same way...then BOOM got preggers....I KNOW WITHOUT A DOUBT that this BODY will never again HOUSE a fetus after this!
I know you'll think I am crazy, but I am right there with you... I have never had finances telling me we weren't allowed. I feel trapped. I feel like I am under my parents roof again in a way. It sucks.
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