mean wifey?

So for years Greg has wanted to look for a job outside of MN. To work for a police department somewhere away from here. In the last week we've looked into WI, IA, IL, WA, OR, MI, NE, OK, and I'm sure other places that I just can't remember... there are so many out there... I thought I was ok with this. I mean, I don't work full-time. My job can travel with me. We could go anywhere. I think it would be fun, an adventure and a cool life experience. We could leave for a few years, he could get some experience and then we could come back to the area. But then last night hit and I bawled my eyes out thinking about leaving my family and friends, taking Ellie away from my parents and sister, from her grandma Melly and Greg's family, leaving our house, leaving our life here. I just cannot do it. I can't. And I feel SO guilty. Like I'm holding him back from his dreams. Like I'm being selfish. But I just think family is SO important. Without them what else do you have in life? I can't imagine our families not knowing our children and vice versa.

I suppose this is a crazy time to even be considering such a life change. We are going to have a baby in less than 7 weeks (heeeellooo emotions!), I've just recently quit my job and we are considering trying the puppy thing again.

At this point we've come to the conclusion that rather than high tail it otta here, Greg will be signing up for school starting in January. This will get him closer to his "dream" and it can be done locally, so it gets us both what we want. It will just take him a little bit longer. But he seems to be ok with this. Thank God I have the most awesome husband ever. I am the luckiest girl EVER (even when he annoys me and gets wasted, like on vacation :)).