Life goes by so fast these days! I am still not really used to working mon-fri. I do enjoy the weekends off, but mon-fri is a long 5 days in a row! When I'm used to 2-3 day streches away from E at a time. Well, since I've written last... E has had an ear infection. Got on some antibiotics and it seems to be better. My mom did take her in on Monday for us (since neither of us could get off work) because she's been poking her fingers in her ear still. Well, he is thinking it is some how related to her teeth coming in cause the ear infection is gone. So we just keep the tylenol handy!
My favorite time of day is in the morning with E. She is SOOOO extremely happy, talking and giggling. I just love it. I think I'll have to take some early morning pics to show you all. It is a riot. Each morning I go to her door and say, "do you wanna get up in there" in a high pitched voice. She just bursts out laughing every day. It cracks me up. This morning she was up at 4:45... that didn't crack me up so much... but I guess I would've been up 45 minutes later... so big deal.
Tonight when I picked her up from day care I almost cried. I, even after almost 10 months, still yearn to be a SAHM. I tear up even thinking about it... well, tonight when I got to L's, E was napping. L went in and woke her up and brought her out to me. E laid her head on L's shoulder and wouldn't come to me!!! It broke my heart. Then I went to take her and she cried and cried. And sweet L she just said, "oh K, I'm sure it is just because she just woke up and is still tired and confused", I didn't care... it makes me horribly sad to think that E sees L more than she sees me. I love L to death and know that she takes awesome care of E, but that just really hurt. If it happens more, we are going to have to reconsider this working mon-fri thing... I just don't want it this way... we'll see what happens.
I've got to go to bed, you all have a great Wednesday and I'll write more tomorrow night and have some new pics of E to post. Thanks for hanging in on my sporadic writing! I promise I'll get better!!!! See ya tomorrow. K
2 comments:
K -
I know its hard to see E cry when you come to get her, but thats what she knows. She is around the daycare lady all day and trust me she will grow out of it, she is still quite young.
I have a cousin who didnt let her daughter out of her sight for the first year plus. She wasnt used to strangers for the first couple years because it wasnt "mommy" and would just cry even if you looked at her.
Think of it this way, would you want E to never be comfortable around anyone but you and G or would you want her used to other people/kids/etc?
Its hard, and I know that I am not in that situation yet, and I know that I will feel exactly how you do when the time comes. It would break my heart.
But you both are doing what is best for your whole family (the three of you) and no matter how hard it is to see her that, keep the big picture in mind. You are her MOM and you always will be no matter what! Just wait until she grows up and cries because you wont let her leave the house!!!
I hope that my rambling made some sort of sense....
Skinny Guy
G is such a lucky girl... I hope she appreciates you skinny guy. K
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