WHAT am I talking about!!!!!!!!! There is totally something important to blog about (2 things actually) One is that E started crawling today! For the 1st time!! And now she's going and going... gotta keep a good eye on her or she'll end up eating the cat toys... and the other thing is that it is Jh's birthday! Geez, silly me.
It is already 6 and I feel like this day has flown by. That sucks, I wish weekends were 3 days and our work weeks were 4 days. Wouldn't that rock... the weekends go way to fast.
I've been getting all weepy and crying a lot again in the mornings when I have to leave E for work. I hate it. When I get to work in the a.m. I have to avoid everyone and if by chance someone does come to my desk I just act busy and don't look them in the eye cause I don't want anyone to ask whats wrong or the flood gates will open wide. When I think about it I am only with her on Sat & Sun & weekday evenings. That sounds horrible to me. I wish I could've planned my life better so that I could afford to stay home and raise my kids until they are school aged... instead of having someone else doing it. The one thing I do find comforting is that she does only go to daycare 2-3 days a week, cause G is able to be home with her the other week days. And believe me, I LOVE my daycare... LE is wonderful w/ E and E loves her kids... but there is nothing like a childs own parents... as Dr. Phil says, "the most significant person in a childs life is the same sex parent" I try to realize that many, many mothers work, but for some reason I cannot get over this GUILT I feel... like I am not giving E what she needs most. Ok, to fend off any more crying I have to change topics! Thanks for listening to my pity party.
Actually I think I am going to go read and get my mind off this stuff... I'll be back tomorrow.
K
3 comments:
Meg, are you still there? I miss reading your comments!! Is Ash doing ok? If you think of it why don't you ask your mom to call me w/ your email address so I can also email you instead of just getting tid bits of info on the blog comments! Take care, hope all is well. Love ya, K
I love that picture!!! It is so stinkin' cute! Kris, we will find something for you so that you can stay at home with E!!!! I keep trying to come up with something, I will let you know as soon as I find the right opportunity!!!! Hang in there and I love you!
Kt
K, I think that I have Meg's email address. I will send it to you.
Kt
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