This pregnancy has created an emotional monster! I just watched a Baby Story on TLC and started bawling, then sobbing and all I could think about was that our little trio of a family is going to be changing in a huge way and in a sense I'm really sad about that. Greg, Ellie and I have been together now for 3 years and have created a
comfortable life with each other. We have a routine down pat, we know her likes and dislikes, her quirks and she knows ours. It is just perfect the way it is right now and I think I'm oddly sad in a way to see it go. I think I'm mourning the loss of my family as I know it today.
Goodness, I'm bawling again! This is insane.
Please don't leave comments about me not wanting this baby, etc. That is the furthest from the truth. I can't wait to meet him. I am just nervous and scared of the unknown and starting over with a new little person and getting him to mesh with this already perfect little family I have and love.
3 comments:
Pregnancy hormones make you crazy. Hang in there mama:)
Hey dudette....your not crazy!!! Guess what? I had to giggle a bit reading your blog (not at you, but at myself) as I reflected on the fact I did the SAME DANG THING when we added a second cat to the family. Can you believe it? I was so sad that our little trio was going to be "changed" though I new it was going to be even better. I cried for like a week straight - got over it, and then adopted a whole zoo! Crazy. I know. Be happy you are hormonal and have an excuse!! I on the other hand am just plan WACKED OUT!
I would totally be the same way. I WAS the same way the whole time I was pregnant with the girls imagining how mine & Daniel's life together as a couple was going to change in such a huge way. I felt so guilty thinking those thoughts because a part of me was kind of sad to leave "us" behind but yet I knew it was okay to feel that way; it's a new chapter. If we we ever to have another child I am sure I'd feel the same way all over again if we were to add to our family. But, just think, they way you feel about Ellie now is exactly how you are going to feel about your new little guy very, very soon and soon you won't be able to imagine life without him :)
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